'Cause I'm leaving...on a jet plane

I'm leaving tomorrow and I seriously just can't believe it. I keep packing, and unpacking and repacking to the point where I don't even know what I have anymore...and really, I don't care. I just decided a few minutes ago that I could have a hundred different outfits or the same three to wear everyday...and it doesn't matter a bit to me- I'M GOING TO SPAIN!!!!!! (that was a bit of the excitement built up inside) There's a little bit of that going around, but for the most part, I'm in an overall state of utter disbelief.
Maddy came over a little while ago to help me consolidate...there is no way to do it though. There is nothing that is 'excess' and there is nothing that I can't live without...I seriously wish I could just make a decision on my three favorite outfits and leave with a backpack. I think I just may leave for a little while and come back in my room and rip everything apart and leave with one duffle bag and call it a day.
I had a very lovely last week though. It's only just set in that I'm leaving though. I was supposed to be working up until today; however, they messed up my schedule at work and now I had this whole week off. It was nice though, I got to visit all of my lovely ladies at Marist one last time before I head out. That seemed so completely surreal. I felt like the ghost of Christmas past coming to take me back to see what things would look like if I weren't there. Someone else sleeping in my old room, walking through halls that I didn't have to walk through everyday. I was a stranger in my own world.
Jo, Jon and Emma came down to see me for my last weekend home. We had a lovely dinner with them, my parents and Aunt Laura and Uncle Howie at the Galleria. It's been an eat-fest of last dinners and goodbyes. Tonight my mom and I went out with Maddy and her mom for the official last dinner before I go. Then tomorrow is last breakfast with my dad and last lunch with Katy. I think I'm going to burst soon! Going out American style I suppose...
My mom gave me a going away present today. I started crying. It was so sweet! It's a little like china food container but its pink with little hearts on it and on the inside are little folded up scraps of paper that have different memories written on them from her and my dad. I just said goodnight to her a few minutes ago and it really feels like the last night in the nursery. Tomorrow I must grow up. Perhaps I can find a Neverland along the way...
Anyway, I guess I better get back to packing...or unpacking...or maybe I'm at the repacking stage now. Who knows...